Jared Leto & Jennifer Connelly in Requiem For A Dream… What a movie.
I’m the only who can help myself. The question is how? How am i going to help myself to not end up down the same slope that i got myself into last year? There’s millions different reasons to hate myself because of this. I keep repeating the same mistakes, even know how bad they are. I know what i am doing and i know i should stop, but, in my head things aren’t as easy. I am fighting between doing right and doing wrong. I end up doing the wrong and always end up destroying myself over this little by little. This is taking me nowhere. I know that sometimes, when you’re in a warm place you want to stay there. Even if it’s a place that’s unhealthy for you to be in. I want to feel okay, to feel right. I know i am not alone, i have plenty of friends to go to. But inside my head it’s a lonely place. All i want to do is to open myself up to someone who i am can trust. To tell them everything to talk to them without any judgement, not to make me feel that I am retarded and to tell me.” Kate everything is going to be okay. I am here for you.” I just want to feel that connection with someone, no matter how old they are. Just to go to them every time things turn to shit. But who am i going to go to? How do I make a promise to myself to not let myself be taken over with that same anger. I don’t want to go back. I don’t want it to be looked back on as something different than it ever should be, i don’t want to be remember as that, ‘freak.’ I don’t want to stay in this dark place that i have been in a long while.
Life is shit. I really want to stop fucking this up again, stop being weak.. This pain i should be use to, but i am not. I just want to feel okay, you know? I want to wake up in the morning and feel okay, to feel that I am in a good place, be happy for once, i want to be able to take life as it comes without any regret…. but how do i do that?
You know I’ll take you to another world. ♥
would you risk your life to save the earth
the event that changed it all
Dark and difficult times lie ahead. Soon we must all face the choice between what is right and what is easy.
The Cure - 1917
Wow Charlie had some ripped legs!!!
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